As if I was ever rude...

Hello again... sexies...

So I wanted to say that im having a blast... soo many places to go and I have to sacrifice sleep... omg? Sleep wtf? Lol but its fun.

Im always amazed and its shocking to me that people talk about me and that most people know me. Yes... that's a shock to me. Wtf? Lol I really want to have no one know me because that was easier then. You had the ticket of a newbie... scoping out the scene and trying to see which group would better fit you... which maybe new friends might welcome you into there circle...

Let me get this clear... im not trying or in anyway imposing that im somebody... or someone well known or someone bigger then I am. Im just me. Some people may get it twisted... and I get it. I understand... its easy when you read my posts and my blogs and hear about me and see me on websites... ok I get it... but if you truly knew me.. You know that im not pretentious.

I love meeting people and making friendships along the way. It saddens my heart that I hear all kinds of rumors... you know those nasty rumors that spread around like wild fire, and im sure you have heard some of the best of them... its just that though people... its only rumors.

So... im writing this while im in bed and im semi dozing... I just wanted to clear the air.

Xoxo
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The Portal

:::::::: Everyone has their beginning ::::::::

I've been watching him from the corner of my eyes. He breathes on me and never lets me out of his sight. Every turn, every step he is there torturing me with his elusive stares. If I am not careful sometimes he even possesses me.

He first introduced himself when I was pre-teen. He was a weak and good hearted person trying to fit in and belong amongst the rest of us. Dying to make a friend and have the best times in life. He spoke to me in a whispering voice... reaching out to me with desperate sincerity. He told me wonderful stories and made me laugh. He enjoyed time with me and he had so many ideas that was amazing. Sometimes he would use me to make those ideas come to life and the other children would marvel at what we had created.

I was never liked by the kids in school and they would always tease me. I wasn't like the other children, I dressed differently, a little old fashion and maybe outdated styles with an old side-combed hairdo but he was always there to take me away from it all... he kept me company when the other kids would hate on me. He turned into my best friend in secret. *to be continued*